In my last post, I talked about waiting for Baby. It seems like it's the last thing I think about before I lay down and the first thing when I wake up. "Is Baby going to come tonight?" "{Mental sigh} I guess this will be another day with our little one on the inside rather than the outside."
It also seems like everywhere I go, people keep saying, "Still haven't had that baby?" Or, "You're not supposed to be here!" Thanks. ;)
There's such an anticipation--especially with not knowing if this is a boy or a girl. We want to meet you!!! It's amazing how your mind becomes attuned to your body, watching for any signs of change, hoping for some progression toward the one you've been waiting for.
Today, it hit me: "What if I thought about Christ's coming like I think about this baby coming?" I mean, can you imagine how life-changing that would be? If the last thing I thought about at night was, "I hope I get to see You (actually see You) tomorrow." Or, when I awake, "Thank You, God, for another day, another chance to live for You." What if my whole being was attuned to the Holy Spirit, if my mind and spirit were continually aware of the fleetingness of my time here? What if I longed to be wholly reunited with my Savior as I long to be with my child?
God, give me that kind of passion and focus.
On a related note, as a mother/mother-to-be, I find that it can already be easy to travel down the path of "what-ifs". "What if my baby's not moving as much today because he's not getting enough oxygen?" "What if my baby gets in the wrong position and they have to perform surgery?" Oh, and let's not forget, "What if I'm not a good mom?"
I think that there are some better "what-ifs" to think on (like the ones a couple paragraphs above). "What if I trusted God more?" "What if I slowed down and enjoyed this moment?" What if...
...I realized that waiting can be half the fun?
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